#DearestFear

#dearestfear

“We are not going to let fear…” Matt pauses, waiting for me to finish the sentence. “Keep us from following our dreams,” I reply. Even saying the words feels like a lie, though the process of repeating after Matt is becoming familiar. I am afraid in the bathtub. I am afraid in the car. I …

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Meaningful Work

Follow the energy

In the midst of my year of prolific living, I’ve discovered a new principle that I hope to carry far beyond 2018: follow the energy. On Mondays I lay out all that needs to be accomplished during the week. Then I complete the tasks as my energy leads me. It sounds kind of woo-woo, but it’s pretty …

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Meaningful Relationships

Head Up

Yesterday I watched a truck driver snap a photo of the skyline as he drove. Dangerous? Yes. But I can’t blame him. My commute changed in January, and I promised myself that I would never take those views for granted.  I force myself to look up from my phone and to take in the energy …

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Meaningful Work

February 28th

I don’t know what to write today. I promised posts on the 15th and the 30th of every month. I’m tempted to use the fact that only February has 28 days as an out, but I won’t. One of my StrengthsFinder strengths is responsibility. I feel a deep sense of obligation to keep my commitments–and …

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Meaningful Change

No Passes

A man called me a black tramp, nappy-headed, four-eyes, and a bitch. He was mumbling, so those are just the pieces I caught. I let his first tirade go. Don’t engage. That’s what I’ve always been taught. I stood behind him on the street corner, waiting for the light to change. I was in a …

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Meaningful Relationships

Splish Splash

Matt and I are contemplating our next move, and I’m spending entirely too much time on real estate websites. Sometimes I rush through my morning journaling so that I can see what new places popped overnight. I have a ritual. Look at the list price. Consider any additional costs. Does it include parking? Utilities? Flip through …

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