Meaningful Relationships

The heat

I got my first migraine when I was about nine years old. We’d finished the fourteen hour drive from Chicago to Tulsa the night before. I spent the day running around with my cousins, and my little body didn’t know how to handle the mixture of exhaustion and excitement and the Oklahoma sun. My head …

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#DearestFear

#DearestFear, you’re not fooling me

Dearest fear, The more I get to know you, the more I get to know your other names. Some of them are obvious aliases. Imposter syndrome, for example, sounds every bit as menacing as you do. But it’s your more innocent names that are the most insidious.  Names like comfort, convenience, and convention. I am …

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Meaningful Work

Prolific – an update

I started writing this update on a crowded blue line train, trying to reflect on four months into of prolific living while also attempting not to fall over. It was a balancing act not unlike the beginning of my year. In January, I approached everything with gusto, tempting burn out with each passing week. I drifted …

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#DearestFear, you are not a recruiter

Dearest fear, You are not a recruiter. Yet I find myself letting you review my resume and qualifications, and I often listen when you tell me that I’m “not quite a fit for this particular opportunity.” I’ll admit that sometimes you are right. I am not always the most qualified on paper, but qualifications aren’t …

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#DearestFear

#dearestfear

“We are not going to let fear…” Matt pauses, waiting for me to finish the sentence. “Keep us from following our dreams,” I reply. Even saying the words feels like a lie, though the process of repeating after Matt is becoming familiar. I am afraid in the bathtub. I am afraid in the car. I …

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